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<pubDate>Tue, 18 Nov 2008 10:24:36 EDT</pubDate>
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<title>why I wonder</title>
<link>http://www.dslreports.com/forum/remark,5862502</link>
<description><![CDATA[if this is my on-line journal and other people can't add to it... why would you want it displayed in any sort of forum?
But maybe that's just me :-)]]></description>
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<pubDate>2003-02-02 15:34:36</pubDate>
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<title>stuff about DSLR</title>
<link>http://www.dslreports.com/forum/remark,8747650</link>
<description><![CDATA[Yea, um, this is my first post. 
Hopefully, this will become interesting, though many other people's lives are more interesting than mine is :)

maybe i will try to put up some links and stuff, Links are good.
visit this link to vote on the poll- http://www.broadbandreports.com/forum/remark,8747650~root=journals~mode=flat
(the current journal format doesn't allow polls :()
[poll]will this turn out to be a good journal?, yes, no[/poll]]]></description>
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<pubDate>2003-12-10 18:06:17</pubDate>
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<title>Sometimes it helps me to type everything out - v.2.0</title>
<link>http://www.dslreports.com/forum/remark,19898667</link>
<description><![CDATA[Well, my original post is too old to reply (sound familiar?) so I start a new one in here.

Every time Chris writes me makes me realize how long I&#146;ve been gone from here&#133; I&#146;ll do a little update of my life since the last time I disappear. Things have changed a little bit since the last time I posted.
My boss was fired, and after a week of no knowing what the heck was going to happen with us, we were reassigned to a different office. So, if I thought 2008 was going to be a calm year in the job part of my life, I was sooo mistaken. It&#146;s like starting all over again...
The show is a daily-1 hour show, something really &#147;weird&#148; for cable. It&#146;s gonna be a huge challenge. I&#146;m very excited to see what&#146;s going to happen with this, but at the same time, I was really looking forward to be calmed. I know it&#146;s a really big opportunity for me, but I don&#146;t know! Right now I think of the endless days working, the going-back home super late, the no-weekends life and I get sad, but well, if I don&#146;t do this now when will I do it?
In the other hand, we ended up not having a month for vacations but only 2 weeks, which is fine by me, but at the same time it annoyed me. We were told (we never ASKED) we were going to have an entire month off. So we started making big plans, but then out of nowhere, we were given only 2 weeks, and we were told when our vacations were, 3 weeks before hand. 
So, we first planned to go to New Zealand, after waiting for so long, we had to change destination. We then, said, Costa Rica. But after reading a few reviews, we decided to do something more &#147;safe&#148;. 
With no time to plan, do reservations with an acceptable price, where did we go? My friend and I took my car and decided to go to Argentinean Patagonia, and I&#146;m so glad we did.
We had the time of our lives. It was the very first time in my life I could actually forget about the entire world and really enjoy. We only worried about the day we had to come back, we didn&#146;t know what day of the week we were living in. We traveled free, with no reservations and made our trip plans based on our moods and what people told us we couldn&#146;t miss.
We stayed in hostels (great choice, met great people), except in two towns where there was no place. In there we stood in hotels, too cold to camp.
Me, personally, couldn&#146;t feel more free. 
One day we were on the top of this mountain, all by ourselves, with a beautiful day and with the best view I ever had. We stayed there for like 2 hours. (Pic at the end of the post)
I was really surprised for how easy it was for me to keep my mind off preoccupations. The biggest concern I had was &#147;what will we cook tonight?&#148; and it felt great, trust me.
I just can&#146;t wait to go back&#133; maybe not exactly the same place but I can assure you next long weekend, I&#146;m so going away.
And I&#146;m willing to do something I never thought I could do, and that&#146;s traveling alone. I met incredible &#147;lonely travelers&#148; and I&#146;d really like to have that experience too. Again: if I don&#146;t do it now, when?

Anyway, I&#146;ve been back home and office for two weeks now. My boss will be back in a couple of days and that&#146;s when the REAL job will begin. Just thinking about it makes me wanna take a nap LOL!

Well, I better go or I&#146;ll end up writing an entire book about our trip. I started a blog in Spanish about it all, but I think I&#146;ll eventually translate it.

Cya around :)

S.]]></description>
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<pubDate>2008-01-29 19:36:38</pubDate>
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<title>Sarah&#x27;s Journal May Be Hazardous To Your Health</title>
<link>http://www.dslreports.com/forum/remark,3998543</link>
<description><![CDATA[Seems like a great time to start a journal as I just moved into my new apartment! Fresh new start and all that. I will start with some pictures. :)

These are a couple of views of my livingroom. Yes I edited one of them. ;) There is an ugly old table waiting to be taken to the trash so it's not part of the room.
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<pubDate>2002-07-31 18:50:57</pubDate>
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<title>Sometimes I Just Need to Tell Someone</title>
<link>http://www.dslreports.com/forum/remark,17848792</link>
<description><![CDATA[It has been a long while and many things have happened, good and bad.  I'm still here and still alive and kicking.]]></description>
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<pubDate>2007-02-17 00:30:37</pubDate>
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<title>A new home and beginning!!!</title>
<link>http://www.dslreports.com/forum/remark,10493276</link>
<description><![CDATA[:) ok I have had a journal here twice and had asked for it to be deleted, but I have had alot of IM's asking why I took it down, and the poor mod, is probably thinking..."here we go again", but I promise not to be a bother!!  Looks like a big move from paradise to the city is in order....just the inspection to worry about which is Wednesday!  I have panic attacks every once in a while, never in my life did I ever think I would own something so expensive.  Haven't allowed myself the joy of the excitement yet, cuz packing sucks!  But in a month from now I will "hopefully standing on property that I own, in a very exclusive neighborhood....with a garage, a loft, a huge screened in porch, and some, not alot of yard for my dog.  But it is beautiful, with huge windows and the master bedroom opens to the screened porch and Jacuzzi.  My first improvement would be French doors instead of the sliding glass doors.  And second the washer and dryer up in the loft with be moved to the garage  to make more room in the loft.  I have tons of window curtains, that will need professional installation since all the walls and windows are from top to bottom of this 2 story house!  And painting will be done immediately...one wall that faces the back of the house is hard to describe in color, I would say a Burgundy wine color ...blech and then the opposite wall in the front of the house is a yellow,,,and blech blech....going more for the neutral colors!  But the entire yard is fenced in and the dog will  feel like he has won the lottery and the cat will love the screened in patio as long as he does not scratch and paw at it!!!  Have not told work yet, waiting for the final inspection!!!!   Scared a bit by the fact that we still have  the inspection, but I worry about everything, a inheritance of my mother's genes!!!  New furniture will have to wait a bit but ours is only 2 years old and is it in very good condition.  There will be so many things we can do, bike ride in every direction...hopefeully get on a softball team, and so close to lakes and parks, and even may take up golf....which by the way I suck at!!  LOL......but it's all good!  And paying on something we own will be so satisfying!!!  So that's  for now, don't what to jinx;) things...and thank you all for being concerned about my journal being gone!! It truly means alot to me!!!  Bye for now!!!         ]]></description>
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<pubDate>2004-06-12 19:22:04</pubDate>
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<title>Seasons in the Sun-Part 2</title>
<link>http://www.dslreports.com/forum/remark,17086463</link>
<description><![CDATA[I thought calling this Journal Part 2 was fitting in the sense I am now starting a new life, a new beginning and a new journey as a single woman once again. The last time I was single and living on my own was when I was in my late teens which was many moons ago. After a year of living apart from my husband, and as of a week ago, I am now officially divorced. I&#146;ve grown a lot in the time I&#146;ve been on my own and have come to learn I can only depend on myself and I am responsible for my own happiness and well being. Some of the things I&#146;ve had to do were easy, others with some degree of difficulty. I&#146;ve also had to make some choices, some easy ones, and some not so easy, but, hopefully I&#146;ve become wiser and I continue to grow and learn from these life lessons. Hell, I&#146;ve even had to buy an electric drill, a hammer and various other little handy gadgets. Who woulda thought?  Not me! One year ago I started out once again with baby steps, moved forward, and also taken some steps back, it&#146;s been quite the journey and I look forward, yet apprehensively at the same time to what&#146;s around that next corner. It is a little bit scary knowing that I am now the one who is solely responsible for my future and for whatever decisions I may have to make as time marches on, I can only hope that I have the good sense to make the right ones. I&#146;m not sure how often I&#146;ll post something here, but, I&#146;ll check in periodically&#133;sometimes one has to write to get things off of ones chest. And why is it that the friends you had before the big &#147;D&#148; take sides and totally ignore you afterwards? That is the one aspect I find most difficult, trying to get out and make new ones. It&#146;s not the easiest thing to do and something I need to work on.

As the winds of time blow,
An angry fire rages within,
Amid the roar of the crashing waves and
The burning tears that flow from my eyes,
I seek calm, 
I wait for my hopes and dreams to come alive,
I wait for you.]]></description>
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<pubDate>2006-10-14 11:51:53</pubDate>
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<title>Varna</title>
<link>http://www.dslreports.com/forum/remark,21322949</link>
<description><![CDATA[Karel Shkorpil]]></description>
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<pubDate>2008-10-25 02:31:01</pubDate>
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<title>a letter to jen...</title>
<link>http://www.dslreports.com/forum/remark,6009131</link>
<description><![CDATA[I started this letter days ago.  It's hard to open myself up to this ridicule.  I love her with all of my heart.  

Once it is finished I will give it to her with a poem by Yeats.  The poem is called "When You Are Old".  I will have to post it at a later date.

Here is the body of the letter:

So where do I start?  What do I say, or better yet write first?  I guess I have to start out by saying that I love you.  I mean it.  I know I&#146;ve said it to you many times, but I need for you to know that it&#146;s true.

I don't write this letter to jeopardize our relationship, but I&#146;m quite sure it will.  It seems that the only time we speak freely of our feelings or desires is when our minds are cloudy and our faculties impaired.  No longer is this the way I wish to be.  For my sake it has to be known.  I am in love with you.  I have always loved you.  I will always love you.  My love for you will reach until the end of time.

I have spent more than a quarter of my life loving you.  Eight years have past since we first met.  No I didn&#146;t fall in love with you immediately, but I do remember the first time I set eyes on you.  Not a chance meeting, but nonetheless from the first time I met you I felt something.  After many more meetings as friends, I fell, and fell hard.  So hard in fact that even after eight long years I can still get that feeling, that same ache as the first time.  I even remember the first time I felt it.  You were at work and it was St. Patrick&#146;s Day, not the one where we had the argument, that was years after this first one.  And, I wasn&#146;t even coming up to see you, just stopping by waiting for friends to show, and wham, the ache started.  Still to this day it hasn&#146;t subsided, if anything it&#146;s become sharper with time.

Ah, the ache.  The words love and ache are not synonymous in the literal sense, but for my case they are in the physical sense of the feeling.  How I ache to hold you, to love you, to make love to you, but, I know that I cannot.  Not now, not ever.  Not for lack of desire or want on my part, but for a lack of love in return.
  
I think that&#146;s the part that grieves me the most; that I can never measure up to what you desire.  My shortcomings are too great, too insurmountable to overcome.  Melancholy as this may sound, it is the truth.  God knows I&#146;ve tried, but some things were never meant to be.

In these eight years, I have tried many times to win your favor through acts and deeds, as many others have, only they have been quite a bit more successful than I.  The thought of you with another, being held by them throughout the night, being comforted by their touch, the thought of it kills me.  This thought dwells in the recesses of my mind, but, I shall try to deal with this, for as much as it may hurt me, I do long to see you in love.  It&#146;s very hard for me a say or even think this, but I truly feel it.  I wish you were in love!  Now, truly with all my heart, I wish you were in love with me, but we both know that cannot happen.
  
I have often thought of the reasons that I have never seen you in love.  Was there something in your childhood that put up this wall?  Was it a relationship later in life that has created this barrier?  Or, is it the simple fact that you love too much?  Once you give yourself, your love, there is no return, no way to take your love back, no way to wrap your love back up, as if to be placed neatly away for some rainy day.  

I hope it is the later, that your love is too deep for anyone you&#146;ve met as of yet.  I hope this for me as well as you, for I do love you more than you will ever know.]]></description>
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<pubDate>2003-02-16 03:35:06</pubDate>
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